Friday, December 23, 2011

The lesson learnt....

‎”Don’t depend too much on anyone in this world because even your own shadow leaves you when you are in darkness.” - Ibn Taymiyyah

After a few episode of back-to-back tribulations, I finally realize how relevant the quote above is. Anyone can hurt me in various terrible ways and everyone can just take no notice of my sufferings. The pain is the price I have to pay for holding on to creations. I should see beyond creations, The Creator!

Monday, December 5, 2011

The stupid cycle..

I am trying my very best to stay calm and positive. One minute I am strong but the next minute I collapse and the cycle goes on.

A Letter to you.....

Source: http://www.suhaibwebb.com/

It’s hard to explain the freedom. It’s so deep and so real. Looking through the confusion, the empty boxes and hollow images, I saw you – Dunya. You place veil after veil over my eyes. Trying to win me, deceive me, enslave me to your lies. When the truth is you couldn’t give me even a drop of water when I stood at your door begging. I was on my knees before you, desperate for you to fill me.

What I see now is a glimpse of clarity that only the stab of perpetual disappointment could carve. And I sit here surrounded by your henchmen, your army of liars sent to keep me in chains. But I won’t be your prisoner anymore. I will no longer be that little girl lying awake at night thinking of you. I am no longer that heartbroken child wasting her tears on you. My unrequited love can no longer break me. You won’t break me. I won’t bend to your glitter and false promises. I am no longer that faithful subject standing before your false throne. My tears are no longer yours to have. And my heart is no longer your sanctuary.

You can’t live here anymore.

I’ve traveled a long way to come here. Sometimes there were deserts where all I needed was a single drop of water that you couldn’t give. Sometimes storms, where all I needed was a flicker of light to guide my path. But I asked you again and again for what you could not give. For all you have is pomp, boasting and chattel of deception. And so I found myself again and again in deserts without water, in darkness without light. But I am no longer your slave for there was a man who came to liberate me from this. A man who came to liberate me from this slavery to the slave, and bring me to the slavery of the Lord of the slave.


~YASMIN MOGAHED~

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Dear heart...please be strong....

“Do the people think that they will be left to say, “We believe” and they will not be tested? But We have certainly tested those before them, and Allah will surely make evident those who are truthful, and He will surely make evident the liars” (Qur’an, 29:2-3)


“When someone beats a rug with a stick, he is not beating the rug – his aim is to get rid of the dust. Your inward is full of dust from the veil of ‘I’-ness, and that dust will not leave all at once. With every cruelty and every blow, it departs little by little from the heart’s face, sometimes in sleep and sometimes in wakefulness.” ~Rumi~

Don’t grieve at the stab.
It’s only meant to free you.
From the chains that bind you to the earth
and shackle you to the shadows of people.
The mirage of water cannot quench.
But is so beautiful to the thirsty.
I’m afraid. Of never knowing another life.
Different. So different.
If I let go, will You take me higher?
Above grief, want, loss.
Above all that I’ve ever known.
Take me higher. Unbind me from the earth.
Like a vaccine, it sickens, to make you stronger.
The stab is temporary. The freedom, eternal.
~YASMIN MOGAHED~

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Pause to reflect or just wasting time?

I have all the ingredients to prepare my dinner. I arrange them all, including the utensils in front of me and then sit down while watching others enjoy their prepared meal. What the hell is wrong with me???

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Konon-konon...

Konon-konon,beriya-iya,ye-ye lah kan nk bt blog makan!skang camera dah ada,blog p0n dh bt,gamba pegi makan dah ada,tak tau nk tulis ape.ape daaaaaaa!!!tlg lempang!!:D

Saturday, September 3, 2011

I want a baby!

WHY WRITING A DISSERTATION IS HARDER THAN HAVING A BABY

1. Three months before your due date, your doctor doesn't say, "I want you to
go back and redo the first trimester's work."
2. Unlike advisors, you can switch doctors without starting over.
3. Conceiving a baby is WAY more fun than conceiving a topic.
4. You know exactly how long pregnancy takes.
5. Friends and relatives don't question the worth of a baby.
6. You don't need to explain repeatedly to friends and family what it takes to make a baby and why you're not through yet.
7. Babies don't require proper footnoting or adherence to a style manual.
8. You can freely borrow other people's stuff if you're having a baby; if you're writing a dissertation, that's called plagiarism.
9. No one will complain that your baby is too similar to another one.
10. No matter how much trouble it was doing it, some people will gladly have more than one baby.

~unknown~

Friday, August 12, 2011

Too much....?


All I am asking is a normal,ordinary and simple relationship. Is that too much to ask? I am worn out by our never ending complicated nonsensical issues....

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Attention: kawan-kawan!!!!!

Kawan-kawan......
kalau saya nak kahwin,adakah korang akan buat bridal shower untuk saya?kakakakakakakakAAA


p/s:ini hanya suatu soalan random,tidak ada kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau sudah mati,TQ

Friday, April 15, 2011

So-called an adult eh...

At this age,27,I still find it very difficult to be realistic!Still waste my time and energy dreaming on something that I know will never come true.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The tourist...

Away,out of country for a week.What did I gain?Something,probably a lot but my mind doesn't seem to work lately.I can't even tell people anything.Damn, how to be a good narrator?!One thing for sure,really miss my country while I was there.Can't wait to come home. Now that I'm here,well,still love this country but in my mind it's all about work,work,work and start to fell lonely again.I mean I turn 27, (on the plane!).27,single and still stu-DYING, well, not a great feeling all together. Malaysia=great!....my life in malaysia=as usual,depressing!haha


p/s:eeeiii really hate AJ in that movie,not only this but probably all of her movies (referring to the title of this post)

Friday, March 25, 2011

Uhuhuhuhu

Right now I'm feeling........................
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so damn like an idiot!feeling dumb!!!!dumb!!!dumb!!!!
huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Friday, March 18, 2011

Cinnamon is my true friend!


Thank you Mr Cinnamon, I Love You!I don't have to dirty my hand to give that someone a tight slap.You did the dirty job for me!I hope the red patches will stay there a little longer or better, let it be there permanently.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

My Wedding song...





Another song to add to my existing list (so far I've got 6 songs in my list)

Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

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."....Nobody said it was easy,

Oh, it's such a shame for us to part.

Nobody said it was easy,

No one ever said it would be so hard.

I'm goin' back to the start....."

~The Scientist, Coldplay~

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Doormat




Don't come and go as you like!Then come back again,go back again!!You people are making me damn confused.It's time to decide,shut the door and lock it!But this is the hardest thing to do....

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Just a quote

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love"
~Neil Gaiman~

Guilty Pleasure...


I like you when I know I'm not supposed to.But don't blame me as it is you who purposely coat yourself with that irresistible sweetness!

I am back!

Yes, after a longggggg hiatus, I thought I want to start blogging again!Beause I think right now I'm in a situation where I have a lot of things going on in my head.And those to things have to come out or else I'll be insane. Hopefully this is the right place.